It hates me, it hates me not...

2011 Super Billiards Expo...

I competed in Women's Amateur Event and it was a disaster!  I had not competed in LARGE tournament in a very long time and I could not deal with so much distraction :(

I hate losing but what I hate even more is when I hand it to my opponent. I can accept getting beat when someone out plays me, but in this match, she didn't have to do much since I handed the games to her over and over. That was the most sickening feeling that I had to endure during the match! Not her tricks, her slow play or other inconsiderate players who decided to take advantage of free tables front and behind my match table.  The agony was feeling like I've lost control, that I am unable to keep my focus and making mistakes that I tell myself not to make!

I know I have no one else to blame but myself. I did not prepare myself mentally of the pressure and having to cope with distractions. 



Back to the drawing board!