OK, I tried and tried to psych myself into believing that I am back to playing serious pool, but I am either not ready or never will. However, I found out that I can be completely happy without having to compete in pool.
It is funny, though... I always though when I retire from the Navy that I will pursue pool full time with goals of making into pro's. But now that time is here, it really isn't in my heart nor is it enjoyable. I found myself getting more involved with promotion and behind the scene of tournament.
I was over in LA last weekend for the Swanee Memorial Tournament with full intention to compete, but I changed my mind last minute to help out with running the tournament instead. One of the reason being is that the field was full and there were people in the waiting list for someone to not show. I looked at their faces and could see that they were much more eager to play than myself. Giving up the spot was more than easy and almost too easy...
So, I lied. I am not back to playing pool. I will figure out one day but for now, I am content and spending more time playing and learning tennis.
